Recently, I’ve decided to use my time without work to do everything that I usually put aside because I don’t have the time. There’s no better time than the present to act. I recommend it to everyone who are down on their luck, waiting for the phone to ring. With cellphones, it is easy to wait for it while doing stuff.
First, what better time to do some spring cleaning et reorganizing. My current bedroom setup dates from a couple of years, when I was still at university. I felt I needed to move things around and let go of some stuff. I didn’t touch the furniture but I started to change my storage system. My interests and priorities changed in five years and there are some things I wanted closer and some things stored better. I also sorted through stuff like pens, cds (who listen to those anymore ?) and mementos. I’m glad that I could get rid of some things I couldn’t before. I guess I’m getting older and looking ahead instead of staying in the past. I feel lighter and happier since then. This morning, I was getting through some stuff from high school. Here’s a trip down memory lane ! Old school I.D. with atrocious pictures, tickets from school band concerts and the ancestors of texting, the paper letters. It’s so funny reading those ! The mind of a teenager is a funny thing. I’m really nostalgic of that time nowadays because of all the things I’m sorting through. I wish I would’ve been the person I am now in those times. Like my best friend told me, we were way too bothered about what other people thought about us, to be ourselves. We are better persons now, and we are happier too. But I don’t only spend my day cleaning ! That would be too out of character for me !
I can have fun and enjoy life even though I don’t have a job. I won’t let my employment status define me. I think that when I’ll let go of all my preoccupations, things will get into place. For now, I’ve decided to be happy. I’ve visited the library and borrowed dvds of tv series I haven’t seen before. I have the time to binge watch so why not ? I have to stop feeling guilty every time I enjoy something. I also let my passion for girly things shine. I do my nails with my big collection of nail polishes, I try different style of make-up and I wear my jewelry. As my school I.D. up to university showed, that’s also recent for me. I was so shy and scared of the opinion of others that I tried to be as bland as possible (as possible as it is in a wheelchair lol). That time is over though. I’ve grown a lot since March, and I like it. That’s something that’s good for me but that will also help me in job hunting. Now I just have to accept that’ll be 30 in November … :s
Ups and downs of a hopeful girl 